hormones.

part one.

awhile ago i received an email from a friend telling me to watch this.

now in order for you engross yourself completely in my story you have to watch it.

did you watch it?

o.k. now I can proceed.

i sat at the table checking my email while graham was on the couch playing with his cars.

i innocently start to watch this clip. don't worry, i start crying. really. i pause the video and say "tara, why are you crying?". so i start it again. more crying, and crying, and crying. then i started laughing at how ridiculous it was that i was crying. which only made me cry more. graham walks over looks up at the computer and then looks at me. even he could tell it was a little odd that his mother was crying watching a tmobile commercial.

hmmmm am i pregnant or what?

part 2.

a few weeks ago OJ came home from work. i was thinking in my head that we were going to sit down, relax, and watch a show. did i tell him any of this? no. i think he's a mind reader.

he sits down gets out his school work and a few bills ( after we had already had a catch up conversation about the past two days he had been away) by this time it is about 9:30- which lets be honest is my bedtime these days. i start to get huffy so i sit down and start blubbering about how i never get to see him (which is a complete lie, we get to see each other quite a bit) i add in a few other tidbits that really don't make sense. even in my tired state i could recognize that. meanwhile, OJ is looking at me similar to the way graham did in the story above. 

i abruptly stopped. looked at him and said in a calm voice. "i think it would be best if i stopped talking and went to bed". he agreed. 

the next morning he rolls over and says, "did you want to finish what you were saying last night?"

I laughed. "uh. no. let's pretend that never happened." 

This is the first time I've been able to step outside of myself while in the midst of the hormones and realize what is happening. its funny, so funny.

crazy hormones.